Went to a new Pastorate by God's lead & a pull from the Holy Spirit.

God lead me to a new Pastorate* tonight through a referral from the Church, I quickly realized where God was taking me. He was taking me to a group of wonderful God driven people who happened to be the great group of people that adopted my family for Christmas as we were at a point God was leading me to a place of trusting him with every aspect of my life. My family was so blessed, if it wasn't for this part of the body of Christ there would have been nothing under the tree. I also soon realized God had plans for this night as the conversation on Exodus 4. I had this need to argue with God about the point the Holy Spirit was leading me to share my testimony with the Pastorate & 2 Corinthians 1:3-11....way past my comfort zone it is one thing to share on the computer but now God is leading me to speak without a computer screen  in front of me. I guess you could say these must be the baby steps I asked for as he takes me out of my comfort. I am finding that my will is weakening because the arguing with God is getting shorter. I feel God is leading me into Ministry & into telling the world of the Hope & Love he has for them through the Testimony he has given me.
*A small group of believers ( 15-30 People) that get together to discuss scripture, after breaking bread together


I was reading at breaks today, 2 Corinthians 4:1-18; 


     Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God. And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness,"made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
 It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken."With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.


Father I Praise you for all the Joy & suffering you have given me & for helping me find myself in you. Father I pray that you shine your light in the darkness of the people of this world...let your will be done. In Jesus Christ Precious name Amen!