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Saturday, April 30, 2011

Clarity & Miss Spoken Words

This Easter I had finally found the connection to the Gospel & the Good News, but I need to clarify. I had heard these words spoken many times over the years but I had never made the connection to the other part I knew.

I would like you to see that I knew about Jesus birth to a virgin Mary, I knew about his journeys & dieing on the cross for my sins, but I had never made the connection of the word Good News & Gospel to those scriptures, I guess I just needed to have my heart in the right place & have someone just come out & say it. I guess I was ready this Easter Sunday Service to actually take it in & grow root into my heart & soul.

With every passing day if my heart is softened & my will is given over to Jesus will for my life, he will cont. to teach me as long as I am willing.

Father may our lives be a living sacrifice to you in every moment, may your will be done & may we be open to your teachings. In Jesus Precious Name Amen.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter!

I here all around me people saying Happy Easter and I wonder. I wonder what their definition of  Easter is, is it Bunnies, Bonnets, Chocolate, the Gardens coming to life or is it the arrest of an innocent, the beating of an  innocent, the crucifiction of  Jesus Christ, the one & only son of God, do they know the true story behind Easter?

I have to admit I use to celebrate Easter with the Easter Bunny & all that comes with it. I new that Easter was about Jesus but that is not where my focus was. I had been told about the Good News & the Gospel but I really didn't know what they specifically were in reference too in the Bible. I didn't really understand until this Easter, I was blind it has taken me over 10 yrs since I asked Jesus into my life. I so wanted to share the Good News & the Gospel but was in fear of messing it up & getting it wrong. I only knew how to share my relationship with Jesus & my experience with the Father, Son & Holy Spirit. The Story though is not my story with Christ, but Christs story that is for us all.

Jesus was beaten & crucified on a cross to pay the price for not his sin, as he was the perfect lamb, but for our sin, the sin that keeps us away from God. Jesus knew that he would be crucified, but he did not run. Jesus for told what was to happen to his disciples. Jesus rose again on the third day to justify us and to take the power away from death, the enemy has been defeated and Jesus became the bridge for us to be with God.

Please take time to read Mathews Testimony about Easter

Mathew 26 , 27 , 28

Happy Easter(Resurrection)!♥

John 5:24                             John 12:44
John 6:35                             John 12:46
John 7:38                             John 14:12
John 11:25                        

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Many People I know have noticed!

Many people in my life have noticed there has been a change in me since 2009. I can explain, I hope! I had said a prayer many years ago to except Christ into my life when my children were little. I finnaly in Nov. 2008 was baptized. Most people that know me know that in March 2009 my family went through the trial of our lives with over 60 911 calls in an 8 month span. I have not publicly shared some of the things we went through during that  time for fear of being called a loony tune, certifiably comitable. I no longer can keep it in for I need the people I care for to realize how serious this is, if you know me you no I would not lie to you. 

Our very first 911 call was when my child had the first focal seizure from the prescription medication & was trying to get out of our van while I was doing 100km/h on the freeway. My other childs first instinct was to grab the bible he didn't know was in the van & started to resite scripture & my Mom who I hadn't heard speak scripture started reciting scripture, this was God saying I'm with you! During the next 8 months God kept bringing me back to 1 Peter 1:6,7-In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

When we went through the trial I witnessed many miracles, some of which I have shared, but I also witnessed stuff that before 2009 I would have told you you are a complete certifible loony tunes. I can't say that anymore as I found myself fighting for the soul of my child. I never thought I would face the day that I would find myself face to face with the devil and no I haven't just lost it as I was not the only one in my family that witnessed it. I was told that my child was his and there was nothing I could do about it. I witnessed my child under full atack as the more we read God's truth the more exrutiating the pain my child was in, we would pray & my child would become out cold instantly, this was even witnessed by a counselor we were seeing. I would drive to Church & the attack would get worse & as soon as we were on Church property my child would become out cold. I didn't realize until a Pastor at my Church told me that I had authority over this and I could demand to know who this was & I had the right to comand it to leave. We found after we had this knowledge & were armed with the freedom verses we were given from the bible & I am statements that we declared when my child would come under attack it got worse before it got better but eventually the attacks stopped & we were back to dealing with just the medical stuff. I am telling you Spiritual warfare is real, it is going on & there is alot at stake.

I found myself at the end of the 8 months, Nov`09  broken within and screaming out to our Father in Heaven ``I CAN`T DO THIS ANYMORE``with a river of tears flowing down my face,  curled in a ball in my bed my pillow soaked,. Before the last word left my lips, I could feel God drying the tears from my face, not a tear to be found left on my face or pillow they were both bone dry. I could feel a peace that transcends all understanding come over me & I could feel our fathers love. The problems were still there but they were in our fathers hands now. From that point the healing began, the answers came & the end of the trial as God had delivered my child & us.

I have to tell you there are only two sides in this world. I don't just believe this now I know it!! There is only one true God & only one path to salvation & that is believing that Jesus Christ is the son of God & that he died on the cross to pay the price for our sins.

You can receive Christ right now. Remember that Jesus says, "I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in."15 Would you like to respond to his invitation? Here's how.
The precise words you use to commit yourself to God are not important. He knows the intentions of your heart. If you are unsure of what to pray, this might help you put it into words:
"Jesus, I want to know you. I want you to come into my life. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sin so that I could be fully accepted by you. Only you can give me the power to change and become the person you created me to be. Thank you for forgiving me and giving me eternal life with God. I give my life to you. Please do with it as you wish. Amen."
If you sincerely asked Jesus into your life just now, then he has come into your life as he promised. You have begun a personal relationship with God.
What follows is a lifelong journey of change and growth as you get to know God better through Bible reading, prayer and interaction with other Christians.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Depression or Spiritual Warfare?

Two days ago I started falling into a very dark & heavy place, some would call it depression including myself, but now I wonder. I wonder as every time these times happen I am at a cross road & needing to find God's will for the next step, and facing questions.

I over this last couple of days found myself fighting the darkness with God's truth & as the darkness was getting heavier today I reached out for prayer from the body of Christ. I could feel the healing power of the prayer being lifted up as my day went on, by the end of the day the light had replaced the darkness & the heaviness was gone.
I ask the question is this Depression or is this Spiritual Warfare?

I find that now when it comes it is not taking me as long to run to God & ask for prayer, this seems to be the medication to heal. I find the darkness & heaviness leave as soon as I do this.

Ephesians 6:11-17
2 Corinthians 10:3-5
Romans 12:1

Father thank you for all you have done for me. Please forgive me for I am a sinner & I have sinned against you. Father take me as I am, take me as a living sacrifice. Help me to put on your full armor on a daily basis & fill me with your holy spirit. Help me stay strong to fight off the weapons that come my way, help me stay stead fast in the knowledge that you have already won the war. In Jesus Christ Name Amen.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Walking on God's strength alone.

These days I know the only reason I am walking & moving is because of God.

I will have worked 18 days straight before Easter weekend comes & was just informed by the film crew that they will need the final list of our missing stuff by easter Monday, this means Easter weekend will be spent working at getting the rest of our stuff unpacked. I know this will take the hole weekend from morning to night as this is how I spent my last weekend. I am so looking for a miracle so I can spend Easter on the celebration of Jesus Christs sacrifice so that we can have eternal life & be freed from our sin.

I am finding my schedule has a routine, I work all day & come home to kaos/stress all night. I know the only reason I am still standing is by God's grace, mercy & strength. I know this because I am empty & have nothing more to give of myself, but every time it is needed God gives me the strength to persevere & even smile when I need to put on a face that lifts others up. When you see me & nothing appears to be wrong you are seeing the Holy Spirit working through me when I can't. 

Mark 13:11

Acts 2:38

Jesus please fill me daily with your gift of the Holy Spirit, give me strength to persevere through the trials that are brought in front of me, strengthen my faith on a daily basis, keep me in God's love while I wait for your precious gift of eternal life where there are no more tears & no more suffering. In Jesus Precious Name Amen.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Plans are a Changing Wondering Where God will Lead Me Now.

I came home to another night of Kaos as my daughter grieves the person she was & learns to except the person she is now. I find that when my daughter suffers my deepest part of my soul aches. I needed to take a break & refocus on what I was going to do & ask for prayer. I opened my email to find out I had received an email from Global Aid Network. They were sorry to inform me the Kenya Missions Trip had been cancelled.

I sit in prayer now to wait for where God will lead me next. I think God just wanted to know if I was willing to follow him & was showing me what I still need to learn.

I ask for your prayers for my daughter that God helps her find peace & forgiveness for those who have wronged her. I also would like prayer for God to show me with no room for doubt in my my & heart of where he is leading me next. Thank you!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Facing Questions That Have The Tendency to Paralyze You

This last couple of weeks I had an Idea that could solve some problems & would create a new ability in my life to spend more time with Christ. My idea was to take the opportunity placed in front of me from a gift God gave me through the trial, photography and my mom suggestion to me that when we go for a lone, for the house repairs that can't wait any longer, get enough to purchase me a proper camera for my photography, that would allow me to take clearer distance shots of wildlife/scenery & enough to have a sample produced of my photography in different mediums to show to people. My idea was, being this was God's Gift to me and wouldn't be here if he didn't give it to me, to sell the photography to help support my families needs & have 50% of the proceeds go to Northview Community Church ( 25% to the general ministry & 25 % go to the missions ministry). I feel that this will open up an opportunity for me to spend more time with God, something I miss greatly, I also think this will give me the opportunity to share God's story he gave me through my testimony.

The Questions I am faced with right now that paralyzing me are:

Am I going on another one of my tangents again, how do I know if this is inline with Gods plan & will for my life?
Is it right to use God's gift to me as my income or am I taking advantage of a gift he has given me?

I don't doubt that Christ is my Saviour. I don't doubt what he has done for me. I doubt how I perceive what God is telling. I don't trust my own judgement in these matters. I know this paralyzes me. 

Jesus please help me trust what is from you & remove my will from anything I try to do. In Jesus Precious Name Amen.