I will start with here and now and work my way back. I guess being it is an hour into the next day I will have to say yesterday morning my sister phoned she was not doing well and was in massive pain. She had taken some pain pills and wanted us to call her in a bit to make sure she was Ok. My Sister called not so long after that and asked if I could sit with her until her husband came. I felt so bad as I already was on my way out the doors for my appointment with my counselor and I had a meeting set up with Columbia Bible College shortly after. I know I should have cancelled them but deep in my heart I couldn't face the possibility of watching my sister take her last breath. I had been there when my Papa past away a few years back. i remember telling him it was ok as he was struggling to hold on. I remember him gasping out his last breath and then he was gone, I couldn't face that again with my sister. My mom went to sit with her till her husband got home. My mom tried to get her to the hospital but my sister wouldn't go. I have my suspicions it was because the last time she went to emerge they told her they couldn't asses her in their designated 6hr window to do that. Her husband arrived home and mom returned home. Her husband was able to finally convince her to go. She was having a heart attach, the Doctor said a minor heart attach through blood test registers at .5 & she was registering at 25. She had a major heart attach. We don't know yet of what effects this has had on her, but this is her second major heart attach in a week. The Heart specialist has told them there is no more that anyone can do.
I went to the Counselors and we started praying and as we prayed for God to put me in a safe bubble my body felt like someone was holding me tight, painfully tight, this was not of God. The counselor started praying that the demons that were trying to hold me from going to the safe place in the bubble be removed and as she spoke the words the pressure holding me released. Just a note to those new to my blog, before we experienced some of the things we did in 2009 if you spoke like this I would have called you certifiably loco. I can now testify to you that Spiritual Warfare is real and very active as I witnessed it with my Mom & my Son.
I went from the Counselors to lunch and then to Columbia Bible School to look into the feasibility of taking their counselling & care-giving program. I had been planning on going back to school to be retrained. I am finding though every time I think about going to an institution to learn, God keeps telling me I am your teacher, not the world, follow me.
I had participated in the Arts & heritage Unity Festival in Abbotsford, BC, Canada on the weekend and it felt like more of a ministry than anything else. I was feeling like God was giving me a rehearsal to what he was calling me to, Public Speaking where I would share the testimony he has given me & for the photography to be part of it. I found myself speaking to complete strangers about the testimony behind the photography through the trauma we experienced. I for the first time was feeling relaxed and comfortable doing it. God is taking that little girl that once hid behind her mom in the grocery store and is transforming her to share the hope he has just waiting for everyone.
God has brought me to a verse in the bible that I know he is telling me is my life verse.
2 Corinthians 1:3-11(NIV)
Praise to the God of All Comfort3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5 For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. 6 If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort. 8 We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters, about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. 9 Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. 10 He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, 11 as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.
I know if it is God's intention for me to speak in a more public way he will bring the meetings & Events to me and I am read to be obedient to what he is asking of me.
Our Father in Heaven, I Praise your name on high! I ask you to please walk with my sister and her family so that they know you are present. Father help me be your obedient servant, let your will for my life reign above all. In Jesus Christ Name Amen.