Ease Dropping, Waiting & Praying

     Well I went for my TEE (Transesophagal Echocardiogram) test yesterday, just in case you don't know what that is & are curious it is a procedure where they sedate you, an ultrasound tube is passed into the esophagus in order to visualize the heart. They freeze your gag threshold with a spray, that they said is like the spray they use in dentistry.


     I wish my brain had connected the dots because when I go to the dentist the freezing doesn't work the way it is suppose to, I didn't clue in until the sedation had worn out & I was pretending to be asleep because I could here the Dr.'s discussing, I realized that wasn't such a bright thing to do but I will get into that later. While I was ease dropping on their conversation the freezing wore off...oops....I started choking on the tube they had down my throat, the tube is about the diameter of your pinky finger. My gag threshold was unfrozen, not a pretty sight as I have a low gag threshold to start. They ended up finishing quicker than they really wanted to. 


  Well I found out if you are going to ease drop you need to be prepared to hear what they are saying. You don't want to hear the reference to swiss cheese when they are looking at your heart or the discussion of measuring of several spots & the discussion of do you think we could fit this size of something(don't remember the name of the thing they were talking about) to clamp it. Na maybe I shouldn't have been ease dropping. Now I have to wait until next Wednesday to go to the Cardiologist to get the whole picture. 


I know this might sound strange but I am not worried about me as God has given me a peace that transcends understanding. I also know God is in control & if he has brought me to it he will bring me through it. I know I should also have this same feeling for my family, but my worry is for my children & my mom as they deal with all this and you can see & hear the stress in their face & voices. I pray to God to give them the peace that transcends understanding that he has given me & the strength to get through this. 


May the God of hope fill you with all joy & peace as you trust in him, so you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13


Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer & petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts & your minds in Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6-7