I had a Saviour but I didn't really understand what that meant for my whole life.

I had asked Christ in my heart over 12 yrs ago but not until last year did I truly know what that meant.  I went on with my life. I had experienced his power of giving me peace when I received the diagnosed with cancer but I really didn't understand my Saviour.

I was still in control trying to achieve what was expected in society & every time my poverty would get in the way & my lack of education. You see I was told a week before I was to graduate that I was short one elective to Graduate, my dream of being the first in my family was crushed by the absence of a basket weaving course, yes I am being sarcastic.

I was striving to gain money it was the center focus of my life God had my attention on Sunday's when I was able to attend. Sunday's were dependent on whether there was kids church as my son could not attend Sunday service in the sanctuary do to his sensory to sound from his Autism, he would end up crawling under the pew screaming in pain.  We were blessed that the church we were going to referred us to the church we go to now as their kids church goes all the way to middle school, so we could attend as long as I remembered Sunday morning or didn't feel down.

I had tried many times through out the years to be baptized & every time I tried everything in my life would crumble and I would give up. Finally I didn't try for a long time for fear of what might happen, the enemy one.

I finally figured out how to make sure we had to go every Sunday, my daughter signed up to volunteer for Kidstown for both services on Sunday, now we were committed. I started becoming a regular bench warmer on every Sunday morning service. I still really didn't know my Saviour & what it meant to be saved.

My daughter & son were introduced to Youth Alpha through a coworker I use to ride transit with. My kids were hooked & their relationship with our Saviour started. My daughter started volunteering at Alpha as a helper & eventually convinced me to go. I learned a little more about my Saviour but still really didn't know him that well & what Salvation meant.

I finally was baptized in Nov '08, this was the beginning of understanding my Saviour & my Salvation.

I will have to cont. later as my eyes get heavy.


.......Jesus said to them, “You will drink the cup I drink and be baptized with the baptism I am baptized with, but to sit at my right or left is not for me to grant. These places belong to those for whom they have been prepared.” Mark 10:39,40(NIV)


“I baptize you with water for repentance. But after me comes one who is more powerful than I, whose sandals I am not worthy to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire. Mathew 3:11